Yes. Dream’s come true. You and me finally together. Your mine. This time not letting you go. The day’s are back which I had with you. Met you had a fun ride. One more memory added to the list. I don’t even no whether your caring was true or fake. But it made my day. Your words just made me feel so happy that I couldn’t control myself. It’s making me hollow and emotional then ever. Your still special. It’s a blessing to have you, right beside me. Your always going to be my one and only till the last breath. Going to fight for you in all the situation. There is nothing better than letting the whole world know, I’m yours and your mine. Love you too the core Aisha….❤️
Yes it’s been more then 6 months you left me. And from that day till today you’re the only one person who is constantly in my “DREAMS” And all the dreams which I had with you is early morning Dream’s. And people say early morning Dream’s come true. But I think so it’s not going too happen. The day’s which I spent with you was maybe less. But the day’s which I spent with you is worth more then anything in this world. I still remember our last meet worst day of my life. Now I’m 100% sure that your not going to be mine anymore. I thought I will never see you again in my life and a day came 12/2/18 12:28PM saw you in college and I don’t know what happened the sec I saw you and my heart started burning like anything and I don’t have strength to talk to you and I ran away. After breakup Some people blame it on love and some people blame it on the person who they loved. But if you ask me I will blame it on time. Time is the only thing which made me to see you. Time is the only thing which made us friends. Time is the only thing which made me to propose you and time is the only thing which made you to accept me. Time is the only thing which made us apart. And the last thing you don’t have time to read this………
You used to be one of the most important person in my life. I gave you lot of chances at least to make a little effort and to show a sign to appreciate but you took too long to do any of it. People said “sometimes the best way to get someone’s attention is to stop giving them yours”. So I’m slowly giving up. But guess I’m wrong. You don’t care and you never did. You seem fine and not bother at all. You are clueless about what happened and we still us and me still me. But the truth is I’m on my own way to slowly fade away from your life. So I realise that my absence doesn’t affect your life, that means my presence doesn’t have meaning in it. So I’m really gone. But know what? Even more you’re the main reason why I go through a lot of hard and difficult things and you the one who repeatedly disappointed and hurt me down to earth over and over again. I can’t hate you. Even though I’ve erased our text’s, I never forget what u wrote. Even though we stopped taking Never forget your voice. Anything we did, I never forget. Yeah we don’t talk anymore and we are not the same anymore. Your noting to me I stop all reasons for you to mean something to me but there’s one reason that make us can’t really gone And that is I still care about you. Yeah you have done a lot to me but whatever it is, I would still care about you. We are not close anymore but I will be there if you need me. I’m just done to be in your life……
By Harish Ari.
You know why I shut people out? Because I know they will hurt me? Hahaha no that’s not it. I shut people out Because I know I will hurt them unintentionally. I don’t care if someone hurts me. I’m no stronger to being hurt. It’s all I have gotten. But the reason I Shut all of you away from me is because I know I’ll hurt you? I’ll hurt you being a fucking disappointment to you. Just like I was for everyone else. I’ll hurt you not by being good enough. I’m not even ‘enough’ and being ‘good enough’ is long shot. I’ll hurt you Because when you expect me to lift you up, I’ll let you down because of my own fears and insecurities and the courage that I lack. I won’t be there when you need me because I’ll be too busy drowning up my sorrows in that ungodly hour of the night. I won’t be able to wipe away your tears because I’ll be the one who gave them to you. I’ll be the empty Pit in yours stomach when you come across my name. But please understand while you’re picking thorns from your feet, I’m the one who’s been walking on shards of broken glass. When you’ll be wondering who will Stab you in the back, I’ll be the one pulling the knife out of my heart. While you will wonder who hurt you, I’m the one sitting here wondering when will I ever heal. While the volcano in your mind steaming, mine has already burst, destroying all the life I had inside of me. So please, stay away from me and don’t take personally when I push you away, because no matter how much fucked up you are, my level of fucked up is ten stories higher, because I know I’ll end up hurting you just by being myself.
By Harish ari.
I was such a fool. I gave my heart to people so easily, and they just break it into pieces and leave. I gave her my heart, my soul, my whole, my life. I shouldn’t have been such a fool. You just can’t hand over your everything in someone’s hand ; because these days even friends are your enemies. I’ve been betrayed so many times, still I be there and happily help everyone when they need me. But later on everyone makes me realize Everything I did was mistake. Because in the end I was the bad guy in every case. I shouted, I screamed, I took drugs, I lied, I betrayed, she left when i needed her and came later on. I was the bad guy everywhere. And when it ends, there’s a person who starts to hate others, and a person who still loves. I was there when nobody else was there with her. And when she get someone new or old ones back, I was like a balloon who was thrown away. I realised my place, where she’d put me through. You just have to be assholes all the time. When someone moves on, they start to say bad things about the person who was there with them. They start to back bitch, and makes him the bad guy even more. People in this world are like this, and maintains relationships on their basis of needs. I was never enough. There always has to be some mistake everyone used to point out after getting work done. She used to say, “it’s only you who is suffering.?” yes, It’s only me who is suffering. Not you. Because she had one whom she wanted. She has everyone now by her side, but not the negativity. People start to get negative vibes and then leave, and in return they want the other person to stay so that they can throw shit away all the time. There’s no kindness. And I don’t know how people can sleep, after throwing so much shit and hurting other person. They can sleep because, they have what they wanted. ALWAYS………
By Harish Ari.
I’ve accepted that no matter how hard I try and wish that things would go back to the way they used to be between us they won’t. I don’t think I’ll ever stop missing you but I’ve learned to be grateful for what we had and not be bitter that we don’t have it anymore. You came into my life right when I need you and I think you left right when you needed to as well. Things may not have went the way I wanted them to go between us but I do think that it all worked out in the end, we’re not together and we never will be, I don’t really think we were ever meant to be. I’ve accepted that we’re strangers again and I think that’s start were always meant to be, I think we make better strangers than we did anything else and finally I realise that that’s okay and that I will be okay too.
Everything happens for a reason, it really does……..
I hate you. And not because you left me and took the best parts of me. It’s because you’re okay. You’re living your life as if nothing ever happened and you’re Happy and me? I’m not okay. I don’t believe I ever will be okay, I think i’m just learning to live with the pain that i didn’t mean as much as you meant to me. I wish you’d still care. I wish I didn’t love you. I wish you weren’t the piece of me that i need….
– Harish Ari.